Never you think of what you are going through. God have a plan for you, as his own child; & know that life is not all about what you are dreaming to become, but its what God says you are going to become, that it’s what you be.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. 29:12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. 29:13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
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Don’t give up yet, because there are thousands of possibilities for you . Be determined, focused & courageous until what God says you will be comes to reality& then you becomes a destiny fulfilled of God handiwork